9/15/07

Without Child

You say I don't need a dick to define me,
but do I need a child?
If women are liberated enough to get along fine without a man,
then why does she still have to have a son
to believe her life has meaning?
I must be dreaming to think I'm saying this in the open
But I'm tired of bottling up this emotion
I'm tired of hearing my best friends, my relatives
and my boyfriends
Ask me why I don't wanna have kids
Like I'm tupperware without a lid,
a catcher without a mitt
a river without a bridge
Like I'm not whole, incomplete, without a baby.
Well, maybe I never considered bearing a child to be
an obligation
Maybe I figured 300 million people already in the
nation was enough.
Or that my life is already pretty tough
Or I'm just afraid of screwing a kid up
And it's hard enough, trying to grow up.
Don't get me wrong, I respect u mothers
But the jobs u undertake, I don't envy:
Gets up at 5 a.m., and then she
Makes breakfast, gets her kids dressed and ready
Goes off to her paying job, maybe classes and then
Cooks dinner, if she's lucky gets to bed by 10
Then gets up the next morning, does it all again
I do respect u mothers, but I can't pretend
That's the kind of life I want to lead, no way.
Maybe it just takes a certain type of DNA,
and I'm genetically deficient
On the maternal test, you had to score an "A"
and I'm not proficient
But if you're listening, I think that's OK.
Maybe someday, they say, I'll change my mind
And if I do, that's fine
But until then, don't grind me for wanting to just be me
I'm not childless, like they say --
I'm child-free.
Cause I'm sorry, but that lady with 16 18 19 kids on TLC?
That couldn't be me.

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