In the Dark

In the dark, I lie awake
My fears surrounding me.
If I was ignorant and naive, I would be
happier
But not wiser.
I fear what will happen when I open
My eyes tomorrow.
Will it be different, will it change?
Do I have power, a choice in what I do?
My choices have led me here.
But where will they lead tomorrow, when I open
My eyes again?
Do I really believe everything happens
For a reason?
Can I accept, nurture, be happy with
The decisions I make?
I fear at night that upon waking
Ten years from now
That I will not believe so.
And that is what keeps me awake
In the dark tonight.